MID-WEEK CHECK-IN .
De-load kind of week this week as I am still recovering from my back injury on Friday .
So instead of 9 sessions this week, I am only doing 6, but with modification exercises
So today is Chest & Back, but instead of dumbbells and barbells I’m opting for the good old cable machine .
Wide pull ups
Narrow grip pull ups .
Cable twists .
Check out my YouTube channel MB PERSONAL TRAINING where I am Vlogging weekly with my progress
PLUS I forgot my workout diary this morning - so does this workout even count? 😂
Thinking of doing quick daily videos like this - What do you think?
Make sure you have more than one direction to follow 🙌
Everyone encounters struggles, days they feel lost and days everything goes not to plan .. Spread your roots further , come out of your comfort zone, have more than one pond to fish in 🙌
Have you felt lost on your journey?
Plant seeds in other directions and your be amazed at the results 🔥
Today was a real push to hit the gym, but I knew it would help my head space. I am emotionally drained and it took all I had to push through my session, I haven’t eaten very well today, I’ve been on the edge of puking all day . I know this isn’t ideal with my training but the stress hit hard! 💔
It has been an extremely testing day, and I’m thankful I’m not alone in this situation, a lot of parents have reached out to me with similar issues. Parents have thanked me for sharing my story and opening up to bullying. Please educate your children on social media and bullying, we need to make sure they know what to do and how to deal with these situations. This isn’t just young ones, adults also suffer from being bullied, I know I’ve had my fair share it bullying and I struggled for months afterwards! If someone’s being bullied and they can’t find a voice be their voice! Stand up for them, but also be ready for backlash from the bully!
Please take time in your day to ask “are you ok” “can I help” give hugs, smile be kind! And please remember you are never alone! Support! Listen! Seek help! .
Damn that was a tough one. Initially I thought it would be a great idea to start at the local 5k midsummer run to wake up my body from my long distance training. But it turned out that it was more than a „shock“ for my system. I’m really not used to this short painful races. I could manage to take the win like @gbtriofficial (so it was a victory for #teambookwood) but I ended up with a bloody taste in my throat and an exploding head. 💥Kudos to all short distance triathletes out there. You have to dig in soooo deep and absolutely need the ability of a „self-destroyer“ to be successful. I stick to the long course races. But I’m impressed by this sharp racing. Next stop: watching (!) @triathlonbundesliga in Düsseldorf on Sunday. #pain#digindeep#outofcomfortzone#midsummerrunwiesbaden#struggles#teambookwood#polarvantagev
Deze maand precies twee jaar geleden besloot ik fulltime voor UDID te gaan. Ik had nog zoveel ideeën op de plank liggen die ik wilde uitvoeren. En daarnaast wilde ik voelen hoe het zou zijn om fulltime voor jezelf te werken. Een van deze ideeën was het geven van naaicursus en verkooppunten uitbreiden. Dit heb ik allebei kunnen uitvoeren en met heel veel plezier😍. Echter ben ik er ook achter gekomen dat het ondernemerschap an sich niet mijn pad is tot geluk & niet altijd even goed bij mij past... dus na heel veel denkwerk, twijfels en tranen, heb ik de beslissing gemaakt om parttime terug in loondienst te gaan. Ik denk dat dit de beste combinatie is voor mij persoonlijk met UDID. Dus ik ben íets minder aanwezig in mijn atelier in Uden, maar zeker niet minder gemotiveerd. LET’S DO THIS!💪🏻 #ondernemer#struggles#karakter#druktemaker#udid#fashion#fashionlabel#workmode#atelier#quote#thegirlbehindthebrand#life
POSSIBLE TW: WEIGHT AND WEIGHT LOSS
today i told one of my friends about a cymhs appointment I had earlier this week, where I found out I had again lost weight and need to eat more food. that makes it 5kg that I've lost since May. and her reaction was to say "you're so lucky that you can lose weight like that"
no. losing 5kg in just over a month is not good, especially for someone with anorexia.
this interaction made me feel as though my struggle wasn't valid and that I shouldn't be upset about how easily I lose weight at the moment and that I'm being selfish by complaining about it. -
this feeling is not true. no matter what anyone else says, how much you weigh, how much weight you've lost or gained, your struggles are completely and 100% valid. -
i hope everyone remembers this ❤ -
I am anxious, depressed & rarely happy.
Tbh, I want to run away too.
Sometimes, I wonder so much but stay scared.
Afraid to confront, afraid to say thing out loud.
I want to lock myself and cry,
Towards every trial or denial, I’ve failed
I feel the stomach cramps, which troubled me
When I was 9. Which made me throw up & stay put asking for mom to come & pick me up from school.
I feel the same misery when I wake up now.
I feel the urge to puke but mother is so away & I can’t tell her I’ve gotten the same, once again.
I want to run away, that’s all I can come up with that’s all I could muster.
Then the reality wakes me up & I realise what all I hold dear, what all I had and could possibly have.
This calms me for a split-second, before I go on menacing this all together, holding as long as I can.
so, i didnt enter this because i want to be a model, I dont, I dont care to be in front of the camera frankly im akward af because I do not look like a model at all to be honest, im basic, normal person. The money is a plus but $25,000 also isn't a lot of money that goes by quick on bills and shit, living in cali. I did this because of the opportunity to have a platfor to share somethings with the world and bring awareness to certain situations and shit that ive experienced that many people are affected by on a daily basis, to be a voice for groups that are often forgotten, groups that people looked down on. My heart will never change no matter how many times people let me down. I have asked several people for support with this competition and have been turned down by some who then ask me for support with something after, I will always support someone whether they do to me or not because I want to see others succeed I genuinely want to see everyone win. I know i may be a hot mess at times but I also know ,my intentions, my heart are always pure and the love I have for people is true.I want to thank everyone who has been voting for me. for me this competition isnt about me its about you. ❤
Talk about a bittersweet moment. Today we tried to give Waylen his first bottle and he took it with almost no fuss. This was reassuring for me because Khloe absolutely refuse to take a bottle and when I went back to work it was no different for the babysitter! She would not take a bottle making me a stress case at work!! Wanting to rush home to her. We will keep trying to give him a bottle every now and then. Making my transition back to work that much easier in 5 weeks 🤞#momlife#struggles
Suffering from domestic abuse I though would be the hardest thing I’d ever have to go through. Boy was I very wrong. I had gotten pregnant for the first time at 17 and had suffered a miscarriage shortly after I had even found out that I was pregnant. That was the hardest thing I could’ve went through. Then at 18 I got pregnant again, my rainbow baby. My daughter is now 6 months old. I had suffered another miscarriage and didn’t even know I was pregnant. Having 2 little ones that I will never get to hold is what’s the hardest part of my life! #struggles#depression#anxiety#miscarriage