Haven’t been on this account for awhile...! Soooo what has happened? I realized that part of myself wants to be this mature, civil human being. And in order to fulfill those needs, I need to accomplish the things that’ll help satisfy my mentality. To regain perspective and confidence so when I speak, I am heard. That’s why I’ve hired a personal trainer, and seeing those 8 pounds simply disappear, it helps motivate myself to keep thriving. I want to wear a beautiful white dress to graduation along with the two beautiful dresses to my cousins wedding. I want to regain that lost confidence and wear actual summer clothes; like over the shoulder or crop tops. I want to wear a two piece without worrying about my stomach and any other feature. I plan to get there. It’ll be hard as I am tempted to go out and eat. But I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can see myself wearing those things and feeling like I finally won. I beat my “fat” appearance. I will win. I need to win.