“Most holy Virgin Immaculate, my Mother Mary, to thee who art the Mother of my Lord, the queen of the universe, the advocate, the hope, the refuge of sinners, I who am the most miserable of all sinners, have recourse this day.
I venerate thee, great queen, and I thank thee for the many graces thou has bestowed upon me even unto this day; in particular for having delivered me from the hell which I have so often deserved by my sins. I love thee, most dear Lady; and for the love I bear thee, I promise to serve thee willingly forever and to do what I can to make thee loved by others also.
I place in thee all my hopes for salvation; accept me as thy servant and shelter me under thy mantle, thou who art the Mother of mercy. And since thou art so powerful with God, deliver me from all temptations, or at least obtain for me the strength to overcome them until death. From thee I implore a true love for Jesus Christ.
Through thee I hope to die a holy death. My dear Mother, by the love thou bearest to Almighty God, I pray thee to assist me always, but most of all at the last moment of my life. Forsake me not then, until thou shalt see me safe in heaven, there to bless thee and sing of thy mercies through all eternity. Such is my hope.
Amen.” by Saint Alphonsus Liguori 🌹⚜️
Tomorrow they are 4!
Friends, It's about to get real, and let's face it, sappy too! Tonight the post is about me and my journey to becoming a mom of twins. Tomorrow it's about celebrating their life! Tonight, It's long and full of 5 years of emotions. dont feel obligated to read on... it's for me to remember. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Since having these two I realized I was #wishing my life away (and the life of my kids)
...when they X, I can Y...
...once they this, then we can that...
💔I had done it with every child 💔
Rather than #living and #loving each phase and each stage, I was only wishing we were onto the next.
Once I became aware of my, let's call it justification process, I tried to start living in the moment.
This will continue to be a process for me and my sweet family.
Living for each day.
Instead of fighting the #chaos and trying to hide it from the world, I've worked on embracing it...and all that comes with embracing chaos.
I've fought to love deeper, pray harder, and serve more...and I've pulled all 4 kids along this journey.
I never asked to be a twin mom. Although, When I was younger I always said I wanted twins. I used to joke about having 1 pregnancy, 2 babies and they would be boy/girl twins...wham, bam, thank you ma'am. After I had Bailee, I realized why Heavenly Father sends one baby at a time. Cause being a mom isn't easy!
I never prayed for twins.
I couldn't understand the #joy I would experience from the days full of darkness and loneliness, grief and sadness, frustration and tears.
I never imagined how these two humans would change my life.
How I would NEED to lean on my #husband. How our marriage would let's face it! struggle! and from that crappy place--then we could pull back together again. Not only as a couple, but friends again.
How I could quite literally be pushed to the edge of insanity and tiptoe along that ledge (for several years)
I didnt know how much I needed them to pull my life back into #focus.
I am #blessed beyond measure to be their mother. Clearly, my life would not be anywhere near the same without them. I pray I can be the #mother they need as they grow into adulthood.
Spring and all its flowers now joyously break their vow of silence. 🌸
It is time for celebration, not for lying low;
You too — weed out those roots of sadness from your heart. ❤️❤️❤️ #spring#flowers#joy
Living in the sun with some oranges and my Mom’s old mixed tapes from DJ Larry.
Today I planted a rose garden for La Rosa Mystica
of Montichiari and I dreamed about
some things. 🍊🍯🌹
When someone dies, even tho their body, nationality, race and appearance is still there, why do you still call them dead? It’s simple, because you know deep down that they were way more than their body. #sad#hurt#help#happiness#quotes#happy#joy