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  • camille_crazykrew - Camille Eskelson🙋‍♀️ @camille_crazykrew 5 minutes ago
  • Tomorrow they are 4!
Friends, It's about to get real, and let's face it, sappy too! Tonight the post is about me and my journey to becoming a mom of twins. Tomorrow it's about celebrating their life! Tonight, It's long and full of 5 years of emotions. dont feel obligated to read on... it's for me to remember. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Since having these two I realized I was #wishing my life away (and the life of my kids)
...when they X, I can Y...
...once they this, then we can that...
💔I had done it with every child 💔
Rather than #living and #loving each phase and each stage, I was only wishing we were onto the next.
Once I became aware of my, let's call it justification process, I tried to start living in the moment.
This will continue to be a process for me and my sweet family.
Living for each day. 
Instead of fighting the #chaos and trying to hide it from the world, I've worked on embracing it...and all that comes with embracing chaos.
I've fought to love deeper, pray harder, and serve more...and I've pulled all 4 kids along this journey. 
I never asked to be a twin mom. Although, When I was younger I always said I wanted twins. I used to joke about having 1 pregnancy, 2 babies and they would be boy/girl twins...wham, bam, thank you ma'am. After I had Bailee, I realized why Heavenly Father sends one baby at a time. Cause being a mom isn't easy! 
I never prayed for twins. 
I couldn't understand the #joy I would experience from the days full of darkness and loneliness, grief and sadness, frustration and tears.
I never imagined how these two humans would change my life.
How I would NEED to lean on my #husband. How our marriage would let's face it! struggle! and from that crappy place--then we could pull back together again. Not only as a couple, but friends again. 
How I could quite literally be pushed to the edge of insanity and tiptoe along that ledge (for several years)
I didnt know how much I needed them to pull my life back into #focus.
I am #blessed beyond measure to be their mother. Clearly, my life would not be anywhere near the same without them. I pray I can be the #mother they need as they grow into adulthood. Tomorrow they are 4! Friends, It's about to get real, and let's face it, sappy too! Tonight the post is about me and my journey to becoming a mom of twins. Tomorrow it's about celebrating their life! Tonight, It's long and full of 5 years of emotions. dont feel obligated to read on... it's for me to remember. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Since having these two I realized I was #wishing my life away (and the life of my kids) ...when they X, I can Y... ...once they this, then we can that... 💔I had done it with every child 💔 Rather than #living and #loving each phase and each stage, I was only wishing we were onto the next. Once I became aware of my, let's call it justification process, I tried to start living in the moment. This will continue to be a process for me and my sweet family. Living for each day. Instead of fighting the #chaos and trying to hide it from the world, I've worked on embracing it...and all that comes with embracing chaos. I've fought to love deeper, pray harder, and serve more...and I've pulled all 4 kids along this journey. I never asked to be a twin mom. Although, When I was younger I always said I wanted twins. I used to joke about having 1 pregnancy, 2 babies and they would be boy/girl twins...wham, bam, thank you ma'am. After I had Bailee, I realized why Heavenly Father sends one baby at a time. Cause being a mom isn't easy! I never prayed for twins. I couldn't understand the #joy I would experience from the days full of darkness and loneliness, grief and sadness, frustration and tears. I never imagined how these two humans would change my life. How I would NEED to lean on my #husband. How our marriage would let's face it! struggle! and from that crappy place--then we could pull back together again. Not only as a couple, but friends again. How I could quite literally be pushed to the edge of insanity and tiptoe along that ledge (for several years) I didnt know how much I needed them to pull my life back into #focus. I am #blessed beyond measure to be their mother. Clearly, my life would not be anywhere near the same without them. I pray I can be the #mother they need as they grow into adulthood.
  • Tomorrow they are 4! Friends, It's about to get real, and let's face it, sappy too! Tonight the post is about me and my journey to becoming a mom of twins. Tomorrow it's about celebrating their life! Tonight, It's long and full of 5 years of emotions. dont feel obligated to read on... it's for me to remember. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Since having these two I realized I was #wishing my life away (and the life of my kids) ...when they X, I can Y... ...once they this, then we can that... 💔I had done it with every child 💔 Rather than #living and #loving each phase and each stage, I was only wishing we were onto the next. Once I became aware of my, let's call it justification process, I tried to start living in the moment. This will continue to be a process for me and my sweet family. Living for each day. Instead of fighting the #chaos and trying to hide it from the world, I've worked on embracing it...and all that comes with embracing chaos. I've fought to love deeper, pray harder, and serve more...and I've pulled all 4 kids along this journey. I never asked to be a twin mom. Although, When I was younger I always said I wanted twins. I used to joke about having 1 pregnancy, 2 babies and they would be boy/girl twins...wham, bam, thank you ma'am. After I had Bailee, I realized why Heavenly Father sends one baby at a time. Cause being a mom isn't easy! I never prayed for twins. I couldn't understand the #joy I would experience from the days full of darkness and loneliness, grief and sadness, frustration and tears. I never imagined how these two humans would change my life. How I would NEED to lean on my #husband. How our marriage would let's face it! struggle! and from that crappy place--then we could pull back together again. Not only as a couple, but friends again. How I could quite literally be pushed to the edge of insanity and tiptoe along that ledge (for several years) I didnt know how much I needed them to pull my life back into #focus. I am #blessed beyond measure to be their mother. Clearly, my life would not be anywhere near the same without them. I pray I can be the #mother they need as they grow into adulthood.
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