I’ve been broken down so so so much. The pain that I have been going through for all of this time is unbelievable but yet I still have love in my heart that I want to give to someone who will love me and want me and care for me. After all that I’ve been through by just not that monster it’s really amazing that I still have some type of hope in finding someone better and finding someone else who will genuinely care for me after everything.
I still have love and affection in my heart to give to somebody better and that should tell you how good of a heart I have that not even THAT will make me stop trying to wish and hope for someone better to come into my life. Even more now I want somebody better more than I have ever wanted that in my entire life and I’m even more ready when it comes to wanting to get pregnant by them and having a baby by them. I’m more ready than ever. I may be hurting worse than I ever have in my entire life but I’m still looking forward to the day that I actually feel wanted and loved by someone and I hope that that day is around the corner. I truly do.