Breakfast this morning was overnight oats with ff yogurt, a nectarine and some pb 🍑🥜 might be going to the pool today as the weather is forecasted to be 32 degrees and is already 28 🌞 it’s so warm it’s crazy!! Put on a bikini under my clothes just in case and so had plenty of opportunity to scrutinise myself in the mirror 🙃 it’s tough as I’m not yet WR but obviously feel I look it due to the societal, diet culture norm that underweight is best 🤦🏼♀️ decided I wasn’t going to be able to pose in a certain way that would make me feel better or in a certain lighting and I’m bloated af so just threw my clothes on and just forgot about it. My body shape and size is not equivalent to my worth, not is it relevant for literally anything that will help me achieve my goals in life so as long as I’m healthy what’s the issue?? 👏🏻👏🏻 bye bye negativity hello neutrality yay !!
Anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa and binge eating: are these eating disorders purely caused in the brain? The emerging picture indicates that metabolism and the gut microbiome also play a role. Investigating the interplay between these different elements might open the door to better treatment for these diseases. Register to our congress and do not miss this session! See you in Copenhagen! #ecnp#ecnp2019#eatingdisorder#anorexia#bulimia#metabolism#microbiome#treatments#ecnpcongress#brain
LOVE MY SWEETS🍫🥰
I don't have much to say about the past couple of days and so I'll talk more about what's coming this week. But still I have to say something. Maybe have you seen that the chocolate I had eaten on Monday was a little too much ... I now saw that I wanted to go too fast. Ofcourse I will keep continue to challenge myself from time to time.
Furthermore, I do not have to go to school today and actually not tomorrow either, but I will go for an important test tomorrow (voluntary wtf😂). Friday I have the last day of my therapy in my group and we are going to play bingo, haha. This weekend my grandparents also stop by and am a little bit scared because that probably means a lot of food ... But we all see it💕
Hope you are all doing well, if not just dm me!
No recipe today :(
I’ve forgot all my photogenic bowls and plates at home (along with a lot of more stuff hehe I’m responsible) so I will post some preshoot photoes in the next couple of days! But that mean - more time for the captions!🙌
A few days ago me when me and my brother traveled to our summer house by bus we had some iced coffees before hopping on the bus. It was so nice and I’m happy that I can do stuff like that now. Impulsive eats. I used to have my meals planned a week forward and if I were to have something special (read scary) I would have needed to know at LEAST a day before. But we can’t plan out our lives in detail! My most beautiful moments have been impulsive. I want to be able to just “oh can we have iced coffees first?” or “look they have vegan ice cream!! Let’s get one!”
Control was such a big thing for me when I had my ed. I always needed to know everything about what I ate and exactly how many calories I burned during a workout. But really I wasn’t in control. My ed was. So today, I challenge you to let go. I challenge you to listen to yourself. Because letting go was what brought my life back.🙌💛
Giugno è arrivato e il #teennutritionalhelp ci mette in guardia sulle diete estive, povere di nutrienti e ipocaloriche a cui si chiede il “miracolo” di dimagrire tanto e in poco. Trovate l’articolo nella bio di @nutrimente.ass
~30g Coco Pops
~25ml 1% milk
Hiya lovelies! Today I’m off school and my mum is off work so I’ll have to have all three meals and possibly snacks! I’m so scared (TW!) It’s so hard to restrict around her, as she believes that I should still be seeing my ed nurse, even though I got discharged over a month ago(End Of TW!) Anyways, I hope you all have a lovely day and I’m going to try my hardest not to stress and panic today 😅
Buongiorno 🐰 come va? Io bene anche se avrei preferito continuare a dormire con il mio cane vicino ma no, papà ha chiamato e io mi sono svegliata di soprassalto... va be dai non era neanche prestissimo, per le persone normali, io che invece sono abituata ad alzarmi alle 10/11 se non devo fare niente, alzarsi alle 8:15 fa differenza... ma va beh. A #colazione avevo intenzione di farmi i #fitorsi con yogurt, miele e noci, ma alla fine ho provato a sperimentarli con la tisana, quindi: •40g avena
Scompagnati poi da #tea&coffee e frutta con cioccolato. E voi?
Erano buoni, un po’ appiccicosi per via del miele, ma me li sono gustata con calma e tranquillità, da sola, accompagnata dalla musica. Verso le 12 devo andare in bici con mia sorella dall’altra parte della città per fare la ceretta da una conoscente di papà. Il problema è che abbiamo una sola bici perché le altre sono bucate quindi mi sa che io seguirò mia sorella con i roller, anche se mi suderanno i piedi e appena arriverò mi fionderò in bagno per lavarmeli. Avevamo intenzione di mangiare la piadina li accanto ma il mercoledì è chiusa. Io che finalmente avevo trovato il coraggio di mangiare la piadina che ho sempre adorato con il pollo, l’unico giorno che sono lì vicino lei è chiusa... va beh, rinvierò il mio recovery win... ho trovato una ricetta sul profilo di @palestrataincucina per una crema al caffè light. Ho intenzione di provarla a fare stamattina e assaporarla nel pomeriggio. Ho anche intenzione di iniziare a taggare delle page nei miei post o nei commenti. Per chi volesse me lo scriva e, se volete, possiamo targarvi a vicenda. Scrivetemi in direct o sotto il post. poi stanotte ho fatto un sogno che mi ha dato un buonumore fantastico. Adoro, soprattutto perché diverso dai soliti strani che @enefuoridallagabbia conosce bene 😅
HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF BEING ✨
Happiness is not something that you have to seek for outside yourself. It is not going to come from a new car, the latest phone or laptop, the coolest clothes or the most expensive jewelry. 🙅
This is just a marketing tool.
They create us the need to have that item, otherwise we are not cool enough, feeling rejected and unhappy. 🥀
Another way is to put in other's hands your happiness, or in a desired event. "When this happens I will be happy, when that person does that I will be happy..."
Or letting us be affected by external situations or people.
Happiness is something to seek within yourself. 🌹
When you become an observer of the situation from a place of consciousness, 👁️ you have the ability and the power to let it affect you or no. 🧘
🌼 You can respond instead of react. 🌼 You become aware of your emotions, being able to follow them or let them go.
🌼 You know that your emotional state depends on you and it is your responsability to be happy. .
May yoga guides to realize our own potential and power 🕉️
You are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress simultaneously. (Sophia Bush)
You don’t have to be perfect, you just have to do your best.
There will be days when your best doesn’t feel good enough, but there will also be days when you shine and feel strong. Hold on to the good days, there are many more to come. Be kind to yourself on the hard ones and take the next right step no matter how tiny this step is.
You are a work in progress and you are beautiful.
Доброе утро☀️ ✨Простите, что не делал отчеты по питания вчера, просто сил у меня моральных не было совсем, это понятно по моим историям. Вообщем, я очень рад, что все разрешилось и они не против Питера, готовы помочь. Но из-за 200₽ я до сих пор себя подавленно чувствую и мне страшно ходить в магазины и что-либо там покупать. Уже завтра нам вручают аттестаты и этому я несказанно рад, так как я наконец-то смогу поехать в Питер и подать документы. ✨Вес с утра: 33.1; ✨Завтрак:
◾️Чай «Весенняя мелодия»;
◾️Чизкейк «Б. Ю. Александров»;
Банановый пудинг(?) с семенами чиа и абрикосами🍧(рецепт ⬇️)
Вакуум, планка, растяжка ✅
- половина банана(40 грамм)🍌;
- йогурт без наполнителя(150 грамм, у меня "Галичина 3%")🍼;
- семена чиа(15 грамм);
- любые фрукты, у меня абрикосы(52 грамма).
1. Делаем с банана пюре.
2. Добавляем йогурт, перемешиваем.
3. Всыпаем семена, опять перемешиваем.
4. Выкладываем 70% смеси в баночку/тарелку/стакан.
5. Добавляем фрукты, можно нарезать, но я этого не делала(у меня просто половинки абрикосов).
6. Добавляем оставшуюся часть.
7. Украшаем по желанию, ставим в холодильник. Через 8-10 часов всё готово.
КБЖУ на всю порцию:
Это очень вкусный и быстрый завтрак😋 ⠀
I have seen this photo circulating around and wanted to give my two cents so hear me out. As someone that is currently dealing with an eating disorder (which is why my account kinda flopped cause I was in treatment) I feel like there are certain characteristics that most sufferers have which are depression, lack of motivation, isolation, weight loss, etc. from looking at Emma I would say she doesn’t have an eating disorder. She hangs out with friends 24/7 and there is a high chance that if she wasn’t eating they would notice and say something. Best friends don’t let you suffer. She doesn’t isolate herself and overall I’d say her mood has gotten a lot better compared to her old videos. I can see a difference in her happiness and i think that has come from taking better care of herself, surrounding herself with positive people, and working on her mental health. People are so quick to judge on appearance that it is easy to look past everything else. Now I don’t know Emma so I can’t be completely sure that she’s okay but I truly believe that she surrounds herself with caring friends and loving family and they would do something if she was headed somewhere dangerous.
Wie übersteht ihr so sie heißen Tage bis jetzt?☀️🌡
Mich plättet die Wärme vollkommen, aber ich kann endlich meine ganzen Kleider wieder anziehen😍
Das einzige was ich mich noch nicht getraut habe sind kurze Hosen und Sachen worin man meine Narben sieht. Am meisten Angst habe ich eigentlich nur vor der Reaktion meiner Eltern😖
Mein Körperimage ist ein Auf und Ab. Ich versuche mich nicht davon im Alltag beeinflussen zu lassen, aber immer wenn ich denke ich habe einen guten Tag hinter mir ohne von meiner ES bestimmt worden zu sein fällt mir Abends wenn ich zurückblicke auf, das es doch der Fall war. Allein bei der Kleiderauswahl, beim Essen und was das wiegen ect. angeht.
Jetzt wo es so warm ist fällt mir manchmal extrem auf wie sehr ich mein Körper durch die ES geschädigt habe.
Heute werde ich mich wiedermal einer Challenge stellen und zum See fahren wenn alles klappt und zum ersten Mal seid Jahren einen Bikini anziehen.👙😳
Ich hab zum Glück viele Freunde mitlerweile die mich verstehen und unterstützen🥰
Morning loves 💞 first breakfast in a while was oatmeal with oat choco milk topped with frozen berries and a bear cake. Oatmeal used to be one of my favourite pre ED breakfasts,but now it's a fear food. I couldn't manage it all since I'm still in that ugly mindset.
I've decided to archive all of my posts and try to start all over again. I don't know how will it go,but we'll see. I'm still stuck in this relapse and it looks like I'm relapsing more and more with other behaviours. My head is giving me shit all the fcking time and I can't cope with it. I keep having mental breakdowns, I listen to the voices, I'm trying to lose weight..I'm not in recovery,maybe semi recovery? Sometimes I want to recover,but still lose and get to my lowest weight. I know that that is impossible and stupid,but I can't help myself. I've been doing everything to lose weight,but it just won't drop. Or maybe I am losing,but body dysmorphia has blinded me? I don't know. I just know that I want to go inpatient and be under surveillance and get help even tho it'll be hard. I want help and I don't at the same time...also depression hit me hard. I'm sleeping all the time, having no will for anything, the thoughts and the voices are so loud..this all is just so exhausting and hard. I don't want to live like this. But I'm also scared to leave these illnesses behind..
Hope everyone has a lovely day 🌼
not my pic.
ye so today I did well with eating. I had sushi for lunch, pretty healthy. though there was one deep fried roll, but only three pieces. very yummy.
I've revisited chewing and spitting today. I haven't done it much, but the one time I remember was when I wanted a mcdonalds cheeseburger. I only ate about half of it, the rest I spit out. it made me feel in control, and plus it was nice to continue tasting the food without all the calories. I ate half of my 6 piece chicken nuggets from mcdonalds, and I ate half of a little slice of costco cake at work. luckily no one was in the room to watch me spit into my cup. I had the cup there incase anyone would enter the room, to look like everything was normal.
wow, I am not ok. I'm leaving the country for 4 months soon, and I'm wondering how I'm going to do mentally when I'm over there. will I get away with not eating much? will I become suicidal randomly like I have in the past? ik that the worse I treat my body, the worse my mental state gets, but restricting makes me feel a little oddly good, so I think I'll be ok ish. if I have wifi and some spare time, I'll try to post if I need to vent. otherwise, it'll just be me and my notebook to write down my feelings :/ I like venting on here bc I can have some interaction and validation with what I'm saying, you know. I won't be able to talk to many people about how I'm feeling bc they speak a different language over there, a few actually. I can't see a therapist. my relative is the only one that can really speak English, and he's old, so idk how that would go if I started spouting off my thoughts to him 😂😕 we'll see how it goes.