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  • minamatkalla - Anna Penttilä @minamatkalla 38 minutes ago
  • Relationships & Ed

#Eatingdisorder kills relationships making social life circles smaller. It also made me a liar. I got disconnected from my family, friends and myself. I’ve spent years alone because of Ed.

Ed made me believe that she’s the one taking care of me. She created our own world where no one else was invited. It felt so safe and unique place with strict rules but at the same time it destroyed. I became unable to see anywhere else than into Ed’s world.

Ed made me believe that my loved ones are my enemies: they try to manipulate me to eat more because they want me to be bad, ugly and disgusting, they want to take away that will I learned to believe was mine – surely it wasn’t: it was Ed’s. That will got its power from outside: comments telling me I look better when I’m thinner (read: you are better when you’re thinner). That will noticed that based on my skinnier appearance I got attention that did strengthen Ed.  I started to be with people who didn’t get under my skin, that’s how Ed kept herself alive. Those relationships were for Ed not for me. I also had relationships where I confessed my vulnerability. Some of them didn’t last: after years I needed to get out of them because Ed was more alive with than without them.

#Relationships can become complicated while you learn more about yourself and values. Relationships can come to an end for one reason or another. It happens to all of us. It’s self-care to form and value your boundaries what it comes to relationships. It’s possible to heal your relationships. It’s possible to learn to trust your family, friends and yourself for the first time or again after years of distrust, suspicion and lies. People who truly love and care about you will do so after your struggles with ed.  They want the best for you even your ed tries to convince otherwise. .
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It’s possible to find people matching with your inner life - I’ve found mine during recovery 💙🌌 .

Life without Ed is the kind of life I wasn't able to imagine while dancing according to my toxic partner.
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The most important relationship you’ll ever have is the one you build with yourself. It takes courage, honesty and time. But it’s all worth it. Relationships & Ed #eatingdisorder kills relationships making social life circles smaller. It also made me a liar. I got disconnected from my family, friends and myself. I’ve spent years alone because of Ed. Ed made me believe that she’s the one taking care of me. She created our own world where no one else was invited. It felt so safe and unique place with strict rules but at the same time it destroyed. I became unable to see anywhere else than into Ed’s world. Ed made me believe that my loved ones are my enemies: they try to manipulate me to eat more because they want me to be bad, ugly and disgusting, they want to take away that will I learned to believe was mine – surely it wasn’t: it was Ed’s. That will got its power from outside: comments telling me I look better when I’m thinner (read: you are better when you’re thinner). That will noticed that based on my skinnier appearance I got attention that did strengthen Ed.  I started to be with people who didn’t get under my skin, that’s how Ed kept herself alive. Those relationships were for Ed not for me. I also had relationships where I confessed my vulnerability. Some of them didn’t last: after years I needed to get out of them because Ed was more alive with than without them. #relationships can become complicated while you learn more about yourself and values. Relationships can come to an end for one reason or another. It happens to all of us. It’s self-care to form and value your boundaries what it comes to relationships. It’s possible to heal your relationships. It’s possible to learn to trust your family, friends and yourself for the first time or again after years of distrust, suspicion and lies. People who truly love and care about you will do so after your struggles with ed.  They want the best for you even your ed tries to convince otherwise. . . It’s possible to find people matching with your inner life - I’ve found mine during recovery 💙🌌 . Life without Ed is the kind of life I wasn't able to imagine while dancing according to my toxic partner. . The most important relationship you’ll ever have is the one you build with yourself. It takes courage, honesty and time. But it’s all worth it.
  • Relationships & Ed #eatingdisorder kills relationships making social life circles smaller. It also made me a liar. I got disconnected from my family, friends and myself. I’ve spent years alone because of Ed. Ed made me believe that she’s the one taking care of me. She created our own world where no one else was invited. It felt so safe and unique place with strict rules but at the same time it destroyed. I became unable to see anywhere else than into Ed’s world. Ed made me believe that my loved ones are my enemies: they try to manipulate me to eat more because they want me to be bad, ugly and disgusting, they want to take away that will I learned to believe was mine – surely it wasn’t: it was Ed’s. That will got its power from outside: comments telling me I look better when I’m thinner (read: you are better when you’re thinner). That will noticed that based on my skinnier appearance I got attention that did strengthen Ed.  I started to be with people who didn’t get under my skin, that’s how Ed kept herself alive. Those relationships were for Ed not for me. I also had relationships where I confessed my vulnerability. Some of them didn’t last: after years I needed to get out of them because Ed was more alive with than without them. #relationships can become complicated while you learn more about yourself and values. Relationships can come to an end for one reason or another. It happens to all of us. It’s self-care to form and value your boundaries what it comes to relationships. It’s possible to heal your relationships. It’s possible to learn to trust your family, friends and yourself for the first time or again after years of distrust, suspicion and lies. People who truly love and care about you will do so after your struggles with ed.  They want the best for you even your ed tries to convince otherwise. . . It’s possible to find people matching with your inner life - I’ve found mine during recovery 💙🌌 . Life without Ed is the kind of life I wasn't able to imagine while dancing according to my toxic partner. . The most important relationship you’ll ever have is the one you build with yourself. It takes courage, honesty and time. But it’s all worth it.
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  • laurafights - Laura @laurafights 44 minutes ago
  • #throwback to my #lunch I had yesterday 🙊😋.
#cucumber 🥒
#chickpeas 😃 and
#yoghurtdressing 🍶
Easy and perfect ☺️
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Why does it have to be Sunday already? 😭😁 Not gonna lie I’d love these cozy and relaxing sundays if there weren’t be the mondays in the next day 😂.
But school isn’t just a place I hate to go to. Since there I’m able to forget about my #eatingdisorder for a while and can concentrate and think about other important things (or the only important things). 🏫
And there I’m forced to sit down on my seat as well which I think is good bc (TW) I still move way too much every day (TWE).
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Have a really important question to you. Do you think, after 4 years I’ve been living (existing?) with an #ed , it’s possible to ever be healthy again, free from all the stupid thoughts, without the fears, the pressure I made myself, the restriction of food, the every-day-counting-calories-of-every-single-meal-and-every-single-gram-lifestyle??? Free from all the compulsions and the feeling of not being enough, not being good enough. Do you think it all can be over?? Because actually, I don’t think so. #throwback to my #lunch I had yesterday 🙊😋. #cucumber 🥒 #chickpeas 😃 and #yoghurtdressing 🍶 Easy and perfect ☺️ ——— Why does it have to be Sunday already? 😭😁 Not gonna lie I’d love these cozy and relaxing sundays if there weren’t be the mondays in the next day 😂. But school isn’t just a place I hate to go to. Since there I’m able to forget about my #eatingdisorder for a while and can concentrate and think about other important things (or the only important things). 🏫 And there I’m forced to sit down on my seat as well which I think is good bc (TW) I still move way too much every day (TWE). ——— Have a really important question to you. Do you think, after 4 years I’ve been living (existing?) with an #ed , it’s possible to ever be healthy again, free from all the stupid thoughts, without the fears, the pressure I made myself, the restriction of food, the every-day-counting-calories-of-every-single-meal-and-every-single-gram-lifestyle??? Free from all the compulsions and the feeling of not being enough, not being good enough. Do you think it all can be over?? Because actually, I don’t think so.
  • #throwback to my #lunch I had yesterday 🙊😋. #cucumber 🥒 #chickpeas 😃 and #yoghurtdressing 🍶 Easy and perfect ☺️ ——— Why does it have to be Sunday already? 😭😁 Not gonna lie I’d love these cozy and relaxing sundays if there weren’t be the mondays in the next day 😂. But school isn’t just a place I hate to go to. Since there I’m able to forget about my #eatingdisorder for a while and can concentrate and think about other important things (or the only important things). 🏫 And there I’m forced to sit down on my seat as well which I think is good bc (TW) I still move way too much every day (TWE). ——— Have a really important question to you. Do you think, after 4 years I’ve been living (existing?) with an #ed , it’s possible to ever be healthy again, free from all the stupid thoughts, without the fears, the pressure I made myself, the restriction of food, the every-day-counting-calories-of-every-single-meal-and-every-single-gram-lifestyle??? Free from all the compulsions and the feeling of not being enough, not being good enough. Do you think it all can be over?? Because actually, I don’t think so.
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  • livewelltherapyassociates - Live Well Therapy Associates @livewelltherapyassociates 48 minutes ago
  • Who’s listened to @jenhatmaker ‘s recent podcast with #hillarymcbride ?!?! Hillary recounts her own journey with #eatingdisorder recovery and this phrase stopped me mid-step when she was discussing today’s culture.
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Isn’t it so true!?!? That body hatred is a woman’s currency in the world? That most conversations include putting our bodies down and lamenting about our “flaws” or “problem areas”?
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Anyone else absolutely sick of this being the cultural norm? Anyone else ready to change our conversation’s blatant body hatred tones?
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Let’s start a body revolution , one where we open spaces to show love and acceptance for our own bodies and for others’
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Need help changing your own internal script? @livewellassociates is ready to help with blogs, and online support and teletherapy services!
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Check out our bio for our website and contact info Who’s listened to @jenhatmaker ‘s recent podcast with #hillarymcbride ?!?! Hillary recounts her own journey with #eatingdisorder recovery and this phrase stopped me mid-step when she was discussing today’s culture. * Isn’t it so true!?!? That body hatred is a woman’s currency in the world? That most conversations include putting our bodies down and lamenting about our “flaws” or “problem areas”? * Anyone else absolutely sick of this being the cultural norm? Anyone else ready to change our conversation’s blatant body hatred tones? * Let’s start a body revolution , one where we open spaces to show love and acceptance for our own bodies and for others’ * Need help changing your own internal script? @livewellassociates is ready to help with blogs, and online support and teletherapy services! * Check out our bio for our website and contact info
  • Who’s listened to @jenhatmaker ‘s recent podcast with #hillarymcbride ?!?! Hillary recounts her own journey with #eatingdisorder recovery and this phrase stopped me mid-step when she was discussing today’s culture. * Isn’t it so true!?!? That body hatred is a woman’s currency in the world? That most conversations include putting our bodies down and lamenting about our “flaws” or “problem areas”? * Anyone else absolutely sick of this being the cultural norm? Anyone else ready to change our conversation’s blatant body hatred tones? * Let’s start a body revolution , one where we open spaces to show love and acceptance for our own bodies and for others’ * Need help changing your own internal script? @livewellassociates is ready to help with blogs, and online support and teletherapy services! * Check out our bio for our website and contact info
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