So, this painting is interesting. I did it at the beginning of this year but immediately after I finished it I hated it. I thought that the element situated at the top right corner was detached from the main form and this ruined the overall balance of the piece. But I let it dry, and didn’t kill it like I do with all the other paintings I think don’t work. I let it sit on my studio for 4 months, watching it every time I walked pass by it and having mixed feelings over it. It was confusing because normally when I fail a painting it is because I loose concentration in the middle of the process or because I force myself to paint, but in this piece I didn’t feel any of those, in fact I enjoyed it a lot, and that’s usually a sign of success in a painting. But I usually search for cohesion, I look in a painting for a main body, cohesive, usually central and overwhelming so I discarded this piece. Yesterday I was in the studio and I decided, like I usually do that I would only do whatever I felt like doing, that I would be completely free and that whatever would come out I would accept it. What I did is a piece that has connections to this one, it made me think immediately of this one. And having enjoyed so much the process I decided to give it another look. There it was, like always and now I liked it. I thought that this piece is perhaps not about the sublime, the gravitas, so sought after by the modern abstract painters, perhaps this was about fun, about imposture, about relaxation, maybe this piece is a little less serious, like our contemporary life is.
I don’t know, this are all feelings, there is nothing certain, after all this are all conjectures based on a painting, what do you think ?
110 x 170 cm
Acrylic on canvas
Painting is extremely difficult, there are so many factors intertwined so that one painting may appear. Life and painting are one, the life of the artist is indistinguishable from his art. In my case I have to be in the right state of mind in order to produce a good painting, all my affairs must be in order. Everything that happens to me affects my painting, taking care of my painting is taking care of me. This is so important and so neglected in today’s culture of productivity. Of course we need to produce, we need to contribute to society but in order to contribute quality we need also quality in our lives. I don’t know how this can be applied to factory jobs but in my case I had to get rid of the idea of non stop production, this was simply not feasible. In order to produce a painting I have to be rested otherwise with no energy there’s no “fuel “ to get the machine running. Paintings are not automatically produced, one needs to feel the urge to do them and that’s not possible to fabricate. It must be authentic and I have found that is not something quite strange or mysterious, inspiration might very well be related to feeling rested and with enough energy to work again. I am very grateful with my life for giving me the opportunity to live as an artist, I love what I do and although it is so difficult I wouldn’t be doing anything else, I was born to do this and every single painting is a challenge. Thank you for reading.