Im PROUD to be myself! ✨
After i kicked my depression’s ass i’m finally feeling great and want to inspire each of u to feel this way too!
It was a long way for me to finally be happy and comfortable with myself!
I love to be a feminine girl, i love to be chubby, i love pink and cute stuff, I love to be open minded and sexpositive, I love doing my art, I love to inspire people, I love to LIVE MY LIFE.
I can’t do my art regularly; its hard for me to be focused on smth for a long time; sometimes im pissed and irritated at everything and everyone; I’m stubborn (both in good and BAD ways); I’m not eating heathy and not taking enough care of my physical state; also im broke af!
I’m not perfect but thats what makes me so special? I love to improve myself and fight things im uncomfortable with! But if u’re feeling down for not being able to sort things in ur life its NOT making u less precious!
Be PROUD of urself! Bcs u’re the only person who can be special in UR OWN WAY! With all ur pros and cons its still U and u own urself some love and understanding, bitch. 💖
113103 weeks ago
HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY! 💖✨💖
This makeup was inspired by shoujo manga style and especially by Sailor Moon. If u’ve ever read it u probably remember the amount of sparkles and other cute screentones in it!
With this makeup I want to say LOVE URSELF!✨✨✨ Be the most magical and happy person! Respect and take care of urself!
Bcs the most special valentine on this day is YOU. 💖
For this makeup i used: @limecrimemakeup Birthday Palette
@colourpopcosmetics super shock eyeshadows (banana daiquiri, race you)
@nyxcosmetics yellow vivid brights and liquid suede (life’s a beach)
146804 months ago
Im late but I hope this year will be happy and lucky for u guys! 💖✨
On 31 of December I’ve suddenly felt super ill so since then and till now (except few hours of New Year’s eve party) I’m staying in the bed and feeling terrible. :,^) BUT This is a big sign for me to listen to my body and care more about it. So I’m super excited about #2019 bcs I want it to be extremely happy and healthy!
Thank u for supporting and staying up with me! Hope to make more inspiring works this year! ✨✨🙏 Ph by @ilchina.photo#kawaii#soft#clouds#photography#makeup#vintage#editorial
94405 months ago
This one is the old makeup by @ilchina for the photoshoot we did last winter (???) lmao
But I was waiting for the fall season when my feed is turning orange ,’:^)✨
Btw u can check all my photoshoots in highlights!
Are u more interested in makeup posts or daily stuff? Or maybe i should add more cosplay here? 🤔
122406 months ago
Im posting this super autumn photo when it started to snow in my city. :,^)
Tbh autumn is my FAVE thing and this season a year ago I’ve started my self love journey. Last autumn I tried to treat my body like my best friend and IM SO PROUD of myself wow
All my life I used to hate myself and ignore all my body’s needs. I had anorexia and bulimia almost for a 5-6 years and cried everyday asking why I deserved THIS. And now Im gained 10 kg from my “perfect” weight on the peak of my eating disorder when I used to drink just water for weeks (wtf???) and know what? Im feeling super happy and nice. I love to dance I love to look at myself in the mirror, love to touch my stomach, love to dress up cute. I still feel insecure and miserable sometimes but that’s okay bcs I still have a long way to go. 🌈
Wearing bright tights is kinda a way to celebrate my self love! I’ve never wore them bcs they focus attention on my “imperfect” legs but now fuk dis shit im a colorful cute witch and these fatphobic bitches won’t bring me down 🔮✨
If u guys interested I’ll share more of my eating disorder and body-positive experience! Just let me know! >:^) #witch#cute#bodypositive#selflove#witchaesthetic
120707 months ago
Show me how are u lovin it 🍟🍔
FINALLY managed to recreate my makeup look from Halloween :,^) This one is less KaWaii then the first one and I added more ✨sparkles ✨ here.
I used @colourpopcosmetics (sol palette) and @nyxcosmetics (Ultimate palette, vivid brights eyeliner) and Dolly Wink eyeliner (this is my new fave eyeliner btw)
Also sorry for disappearing from ur feed for a long time :,,^( I had loads of work and mental problems. I’ll try to post more often I SWEAR 🙇♀️
205507 months ago
Posting another one from last photoshoot bcs this fits my feed better. :^) I feel like Im sitting in real clouds here. ✨
Ph by @ilchina.photo#dreamy # kawaii #soft#clouds
Pink sunset 🌙✨
Im happy to come back into your feed! I have loads of ideas for photos and makeups! So excited!! òwó
For this makeup I used NYX products : Ultimate palette, white eyeshadow base, sweet cheeks palette; also I used white FX facepaint and loreal colorista sprays for my hair ✨
2666010 months ago
Today is the last day with this dummy. Hope to see u soooon 💔💔💔
Btw this picture filled with pure happiness CAN U FEEL IT??
1320011 months ago
I’m so blessed to be surrounded by such a nice people as my friends, sweet bf and u all. 💔✨
1299011 months ago
I’m having such a nice and peaceful time now. IM BLESSED!!
Also idk should I cut off my hair to my regular_bob_hairstyle or keep growing it :,^) HALP. What do u think I should dooo? 🤔 (btw this photo is old so my hair much longer now )
1640011 months ago
I had such a stressful month omg
Anyway Im not dead and here’s my comeback in ur feed :^)
112901 year ago
I thought that I’ll be more active here but oopsie :,^) Last month was kinda hard for me - I was trying to feel myself pretty (again???) after last depressive episode, was figuring out things with work and tried to be happier AGAIN. Now I’m leaving my home place to spend 2 months in Kiev and Im feeling a lil bit nervous (idk why ;;) BUT I hope everything will be nice! How was ur April? ✨ Did u guys was enjoying spring or missed all beauty like ME? :,^)
109801 year ago
Tbt to the NYX party where I was a cute mint maid. ✨💖
I love to wear extra cute clothes but ITS SO HARD IN OUR CITY?? I wish everyone have ability to express themselves with clothes/hair color/makeup without feeling uncomfortable. :,^) Are u being able to wear what_u_want outside in a everyday life?
153201 year ago
After every depressive episode you try your best to live “average” life again. Step by step you’re learning how to feel happiness, spread positive emotions and trying to find few reasons for existing.
I live with depression for 3 (???) years and still can’t help myself when breakdowns happens. :,^)
Depression doesn’t have a face or physical appearance so here is a pic of pink happy girl smiling and trying to defeat all shitty stuff inside! Don’t forget to treat yourself right and look after your mental health! ✨